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Screw You World

I hate to be of the modern human species. We are the greatess predator in this planet, cannibalism, disease, disasters, wars, it is part of nature, its nature's way of reducing and balancing a population of a species. We've looked for for millions of ways to counter all that to ensure our survival, even if it means sacrificing the entire population of another species. Dodo was extinct because of us, tigers and other wildlife are next.

I'm ashame to be a human. If i have a wish, i wish humans are all dead. Yes, that means you, you, you and you. We have too much intelligence in us for our own good, even if a few of us are left, we will bound to be the dominant species again. Come on! Send an asteroid this way and wipe us out for good, flood the world with all the tsunamis you can muster.

I'm pretty aware of my current condition, i'm abit short circuit. I'm cooped up at home all day long for almost a year already, and yes i can feel i'm going crazy. I've lost interest even in my computer games. I'm too stressed out by not knowing what will happen tomorrow and what might happen in the future. My older sister is in australia, my parents are divorcing, my great grandmother gets lost evey few days due to being senile, i'm broke, i'm trying to figure out why my science sucks. I'm also trying very hard to maintain sanity, i'm trying very very hard to interprete what i'm saying and to do it logically. But its falling to bits and pieces. I'm even so desperate that sometimes i start talking to my rabbit and hamster without really realising it till i snaped out of it and slap myself silly.

This is how i spend an average day. 11 to 12 pm wake up, shower, Spend my afternoon reading and surfing the net for articles to read. Lunch at 3 plus, then see what else there is to do, sometimes tuition, Dinner, 1 hr of TV, Shower, study if i feel like it but from next month on is daily revision of at least 5 hrs, blog blog blog, Bed at 2am.

How interesting........... esp when it has went on since after chinese new year 2005. I really wore my patience thin, i'm talking rubbish quite often than before, if i don't get into poly next year i will probably commit hari kiri or disembowelment, Slice myself from the abdomen down with a knife like what the japanese do to avoid shame and dishonour. But for now i'll try to pull myself together for my big exams.. i must remain sane, must be sane.

posted by Don @ Thursday, September 22, 2005